Am I Bipolar?Asking help from China ?

It does sound more like Borderline Personality Disorder to me. The two are often confused for one another but borderline is much less intense and predictable than bi-polar and also doesn't respond to medication, unlike bi-polar. Don't lose hope for life, this is a struggle but it will make you stronger when you overcome. The best advice I can give is to be introspective and notice what sets you off and try to avoid it. Try to think of things that will calm you down when you begin to feel upset, like count to ten, close your eyes and picture yourself someplace where you feel truly happy or think of a person or word that makes you laugh every time and say it or picture the person to distract yourself from what you are upset about.